Contradiction

con·tra·dic·tion

   [kon-truh-dik-shuhn] noun
1. the act of contradicting; gainsaying or opposition.
2. assertion of the contrary or opposite; denial.
3. a statement or proposition that contradicts or denies another or itself and is logically incongruous.
4. Nana
 
Yes, I’m a living definition of a contradiction. 
 
I feel like the days are flying by … I just want to shout “slow down!!"  And yet I find myself wishing the time would pass more quickly so we could get to mid-September so we could leave on our next trip.
 
I enjoy interacting with my co-workers and the extra income that this temporary position provides.  And yet I miss the luxury of full-time retirement and being able to do whatever I want whenever I want.
 
I enjoy the peace and quiet of my empty nest.  And yet I miss the hugs, the laughter, the endless questions, and even the squabbles of the Ts … it’s just too quiet here.
 
I’m painfully shy and quite uncomfortable in large groups.  And yet when I’m with family or very close friends, I’m confident and outgoing.
 
I love my family, my life here on this earth.  And yet I long for a better place.
 
I seek God’s will and His guidance.  And yet I all too often try to take control of my circumstances.
 
Yes, I’m a walking contradiction.